Just A Hat …

So … my week started with my team getting trashed … boo hiss!  Then I realised after the game, that the yoke of my Flax sweater looked small because … doh … I didn’t change to larger needles after doing the neck band!!!  😦    That means starting over and at this point, my timeline to finish it as an OWL  for the HPKCHC competition is not going to be met.  No worries though … although that baby’s on timeout, I’m even more determined to finish it.   Then on top of all that, I go to work yesterday to hear that my job has lost all its major funding contracts, staff is going to have to be let go or mercifully, moved to other agencies.  Adding to that stress, a position in my group (that has moved from 7 to 3 in the space of two and a half years) was slated to be on the chopping block.

I’m typically a positive person but yesterday’s work news took some of the wind out of my sails.   Actually, it took a lot of wind out of my sails.  Blessedly for me, my boss reconsidered how having two people instead of three in my department would affect operations negatively so for now we’re still three.  But this sucks more than I could express and I’m so very tired of it.  I wanted really to  … errr … express myself in a not so nice way  😀  but I know that (1.) that’s not how I’m supposed to behave,  (2.) it really wouldn’t change anything and (3.) that’s really not my style.  So instead,  in my lunch hour, I started this hat for one of my co-workers:

Laurie's Hat

I’m not going to lie — it took a while for the meditative rhythm of knitting to get me to loosen my grip on the needles, to stop gritting my teeth, to lose the urge to cuss uncontrollably and to actually get back to the point of relaxing.  Once I got myself together, I was able to pray, receive heavenly Help which allowed me to start breathing easier.  When I looked down … the hat was almost at the point of decreases!  LOLOL!   Now that’s my kind of therapy!

There’s a lot to be done in the next two weeks and I’m going to have to push myself and my team hard to accomplish these goals. But in the mean time, while my Flax sweater is on time-out, I have to make some serious professional decisions while keeping calm and knitting.  Even if it’s just a hat!