This week has been a little trying … in some ways. I’ve been fighting a cold, I lost my voice totally and had to stay home from work for three days. All that time did was remind me how much I now absolutely hate going to my job. I know hate is a strong word but that’s what this job has become; I feel trapped there — almost like a caged animal wanting the rip bars down and bust out. It doesn’t help that I have another unpleasant meeting this week that cannot be avoided; all I want to do is get the heck out of dodge where this job is concerned. I’m over it but I don’t want to become stay impatient. I make my worse decisions when I’m impatient and this one is too big to mess up. I know what I need to do; I need to calm down, pray without ceasing and trust God to help me find a work environment where I could thrive instead of die. It’s hard to wait … but it can be done. I need to discipline my “fight and flight” urges so I can walk into the best that there is for me.
I tell people all the time, I might not be the best Christian there is or will ever be but I can definitely say that me and God … we got a thing! 😀 He gets me and He speaks to me in languages I know — i.e. movie lines, random quotes and song lyrics. I know it sounds crazy but I’m sticking to that story because I KNOW it’s true! 😀 To that end, these are my blessings this week:
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Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies. ~ Shawshank Redemption
That is true for fictional character Andy Dufrense and it’s true for me too! I have to “keep hope alive” and walk in the calling (whatever it might be) that God has for my life. I will NOT for a moment, believe that there’s not something better for me. Specifically a job!
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You wait and you wait for somethin’ big to happen… and then you find out you gon’ die. ~ Last Holiday
This is true for many people and I don’t want it to be true for me. Like Andy said in Shawshank Redemption, a person has two choices, he/she can either get busy living or get busy dying. Errrr … not a hard choice in my opinion.
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I’m a survivor
I’m not goin’ give up
I’m not goin’ stop
I’m goin’ work harderI’m a survivor
I’m goin’na make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin’I’m a survivor
I’m not goin’ give up
I’m not goin’ stop
I’m goin’ work harderI’m a survivor
I’m goin’ make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin’ ~ Chorus from Survivor — Destiny’s Child
Now I’m not a DC fan (except for working out; I’m ole skool in my music taste 😛 ), but during my cancer treatment a few years ago, God brought these words to my mind. The chorus of that song (Survivor) was my anthem during my pre-surgical period, while I was in the hospital and the three long recovery years. Every time I got tired, this chorus came to mind … every time! It’s not surprise to me that this week, He brought it back to mind. I told y’all He speaks to me in song lyrics. 😀
- This week, He even sent me gifts! I’m forever talking about how much my impression of community has changed with all the online connections I’ve made and He used one of you to remind me that although my family’s so very far away, I do have community!!!! I’m met Robin through Ravelry. I love her quiet presence, her patterns (knit and cross-stitch) and her blog. I became a regular visitor to her blog and she became one on mine. Still it was a surprise when she contacted me, expressing the desire to send me some cross-stitch floss I wanted to try. How is it that this would be the week, when I really needed a pick-me-up, that her package arrives? A handwritten note, with an illustration (drawn by her) and one of my favourite verses (Psalms 66:1), a small hoop, one of her patterns, some pieces of linen and floss. A wonderful reminder that sincere kindness has no limit. In these cases, saying thank you never seems to be enough, but I’m going to say it anyway — “thank you so very much Robin.”
I hope each of you had a great week and as we enter the new week, I wish for each of us: hope that sustains us, purposeful living all the days of our lives, knowing that we’re worth the fight for a life that truly represents us, a life filled with kindness — giving and in receipt of!
Happy Sunday!!!
D'NALI 
I had no idea you had cancer. What type? Soo glad you are a survivor xxx
Thyroid cancer. It’s a part of my story that used to be hard to share, it still is sometimes. It’s still scary; it took me almost three years before I could have said out loud that I had cancer. It’s still hard for me to check off when I go to the Dr. There are people in my family and in my social circle who still don’t know. All they know is that I was sick.
But thank God, all things being well, this year — Sept 30 — will make me 8 years cancer-free.
So glad that you are healthy x
My mum is currently being tested for this as she has a lump in her neck. We received good news today that her chest xray is clear. Tomorrow she goes for an ultrasound scan and biopsy.
Again, so very glad you kicked this xxx
Am praying for her!!! Let me know how things go. ♥
Robin is indeed a blessing. She is one of my very favorite people! Amazing how certain people are put in our paths to help us through tough times. Bathe in the knowledge that everything we are and do are for a certain reason. We were meant to go through the tough times, in order to persevere. I know I don’t have to tell you this, considering all you have had to go through.
Something my mother tells me over and over again is to pray as if you have already recieved. I don’t often so this, but when I do it works. So I will be sending a prayer up for you thanking God for making your job bearable. 🙂
Oh and sorry for not linking my blog. Instead I linked a pattern. hehe!
Hope you are feeling better.
Ha … maybe I needed to see that pattern; I’m so not going to break the link, I’m off to save the pattern instead.
That’ll add to my 2014 pattern stash since technically I’m not supposed to be adding new patterns to my stash this year … errr … LOLOL!! 😉
My mother would agree with yours 100%. Here’s prayers for a good week for all of us.
My post sounds a bit “down in the mouth” but I’m doing better than it sounds. It was just a lot of realisations to process along with the flu. Not a great time to do it but apparently time is of essence (see my email for that one) and I needed to get my tuckus in gear! LOLOL! 🙂
Smooches and hugs and thank you so very much.
Nicky